impotent decision

I've been struggling over what to do first when I get powers.

Maybe I could retaliate. Maybe I could take acception to some small slight on a friend or even a stranger. The offender would call me a fagot and ask just who the hell I was and I'd throw him through a table. I bet that breaks bones, not like in the movies. It would be overkill, but then I'll be the first one with powers so I suppose it will be up to me to set the new standards.

I could go to Wendys and order an icecream. I'd tell her "big, extra big, the biggest. And I'm serious, big." I could give her six dollars on three-thirty and tell her "keep the change". I could lean against the counter, smug, unneccessary sunglasses on an hour before they close for the night, and look back at the people behind me in line - I mean really just stare. I could wait until she tapped me on the shoulder to turn. Sunglasses now off, I could take my icream and tell her to remember me. I could wink like a jackass.

I could quickly forget what life was like being human and, judgmental and vindictive after being so often disapointed by my own skewered expectations, I could sit at home alone with my sense of superiority. I could watch the news and ease my guilt by telling myself that you all deserved it.